Snappy and Stuff

Oh, I have been feeling so snappy the last couple of days.
Getting way too annoyed with anyone (everyone) and just a little too short on patience.
Way too short for my liking.
I can usually pretty much let it roll off for a while but then it gets to me, whatever it  even is.
And then I get super annoyed with myself.
And know that I need to get over myself.

Last night I was supposed to do something which I was a little annoyed about anyway, it
being a Friday night and all, and somebody screwed up and delayed me and it didn't
end up working out so I had to go do it at 6:00 this morning instead.
I was so beyond irritated and couldn't let it go.
But, being up and out that early allowed me to see the sun coming up and the lake and the
birds and everything covered in a thin, sparkly coat of ice.
It was so pretty.
Freezing, literally, but pretty.

Have you ever wanted to blog about something but then can't quite find the right words to
use or what to say exactly once you sit down and try to type it?
It's dumb.
And I don't mean when you have nothing to say or have writers/bloggers block,
but instead when you do have something to say but don't know how to without sounding
weird and dumb and...crazy.
This might be sounding way too cryptic and I am not trying to at all, really, it's nothing
serious or bad or anything like that at all but just a bit of an update on all of my craziness--
the panic and anxiety and the process of figuring out to medicate or not to medicate,
the insomnia and... you know, all of that.

*And speaking of the cryptic stuff, don't you hate it when people on facebook put out the
really dramatic, cryptic posts to pray for them, they don't  know how are they going to
go on, they just got the worst news ever, etc. but then they never elaborate?
That seriously annoys me.

But back to the craziness-- things are so much better and stable and non-anxious and I
thought I could tell you a little about the last several(or six?) months or so and how things have
been going and that if you are in the position I was back here just to let you know that things
will not(or do not have to) stay that way forever.
A bit of encouragement if you will.
It just never sounds quite right but I'll get it one day and share it, because I think I feel like
I want to.

So I will get over myself and the words will come.... and maybe tomorrow I will
wake up on the right side of the bed. Let's hope so anyway.
And if not, at least I will get to see Brad Pitt in this tonight.