{Warning : No sugar-coated I Love My Life! post here today.
Looking for that? Best keep moving, folks}
There are lots of good things about being a grown-up... or The Grown-Up, don't get me wrong,
but there are a lot of super crappy, not fun things about being an adult, too....
And lately?
Those things just seem to be overshadowing the few benefits I can currently count on my hand
of being the older, mature "grown-up".
Because really... some days?
I don't want to make the decisions, or answer the questions, I don't want to help with third grade
Math homework or try to teach the "right lessons" about not nice friends at school.
I don't want to wonder if I am in the right place in my life, doing the right thing.
I don't want to worry about bills.
Or lack of money.
Busy schedules and a house that I can't seem to keep up with.
I don't want to think about having no dental insurance, feeling like crap,
loads + loads of laundry, school fundraisers, volunteering at school and the
seemingly constant school meetings and emails.
AND on top of all that-- a new job.
Some days I just don't want to do any of it.
None.
I just want to get in my car, with my friends, like we did when we were twenty,
go on a road trip somewhere to see some concert that we just have to see and be
immature with no responsibilities and no real cares.
Don't get me wrong, I don't actually wish I was twenty again, but some days that simpler
carefree time sure does appeal to me.
Today is one of those days, and this is one of those weeks.
So instead, today I will fold laundry, go through school papers and answer 50 emails,
while watching/listening to the Gilmore Girls....
Taking off in my car for a random road trip will just have to wait until another day, huh?
Sigh.
Oh well.
Ever have these days... weeks... feelings... thoughts?
Ever feel like hiding under the covers and never coming back out?
Please tell me I'm not alone.
you are not alone...I've had one of those months...come pick me up in the woody and we'll get lost together:)
ReplyDeleteGabe-- it's a deal, but only if I can have the gas prices of when I was 20... otherwise it's way too expensive to take the Woody on a road trip! :)
DeleteYou most certainly are not alone... I feel like that at least 3.5 days a week!
ReplyDeleteahhh.... whew. thank you : )
Deletenope, definitely NOT alone!! i was seeing a therapist a couple years ago and she asked me what the most stressful thing in my life was at the moment. to which i replied, "being an adult!" it's too much sometimes. hang in there!
ReplyDeleteWAY too much. thank you!
Deleteyes. pretty much every day for this whole past year.
ReplyDeleteI don't want to worry anymore. about BILLS BILLS BILLS.
homework not being turned in, mean girls at school, our house that is going into foreclosure,
my sick hubby that has yet another MRI next week, my kids worrying all the time. just stress non-stop
and I can't stand it. top all of that with cooking, running savannah to swim 6 days a week, trying to exercise so I don't go insane,
keeping my house picked up and clean. too much to worry about. I say just take one day or even hour at a time, which is what I am doing until
that overwhelming feeling goes down. it may never go away, but it lessens a little. and some days ya know what? Just let yourself get back under those covers or go out for that margarita! xoxo. tara
Yeah I feel that way. Especially the email it yells "Respond to me, respond to me" and I just want to hide under my covers. And holy cow how much paper do they waste at school because the amount of papers that come home is ridiculous?! But I suck it up, drag my blanket to the couch or table and get through the papers from school...and on a good day emails get responded to as well.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, mama.