I am trying to turn tired, stressed and frustrated into happy, calm and relaxed today.
Faking it, if you will.
There's just really not time to wallow in self pity today, but if there was, and my kids didn't need to be
taken care of, I would so be laying in bed watching My So Called-Life eating Cool Ranch Doritos
and having a big fat Dr. Pepper with crushed ice.
While wallowing in self pity.
BUT instead I am making banners and cleaning and organizing and spray painting and wrapping frames in fabric. How cute are they anyway? I love how they turned out!
Never mind the fact that my bathroom is only half done, "people" are stressed and anxious, the plumber is coming tomorrow to take care of a new bathroom problem and I still have a list of things to do a mile long. There is dry wall and tools and all the contents of the bathroom strewn about the upstairs and I am hosting a baby shower on Saturday.
But it's all good and somehow it will all work out.
Today I was talking to my cousin about people and their problems and our problems and lives in general and we decided that a lot of people are quite a mess really and it's probably best that they (we) put on a smile and fake it a good deal of the time. Just to get through.
I mean, faking it all the time is not a good thing, I'm not advising that, but we can't let it all hang out all the time either. Right? Who would take care of our kids if we are all laying in bed in our pajamas drooling over Jordan Catalano or crying to Bonnie Rait songs?
I'm just sayin'.
Today I choose to put on a smile and fake it.
And listening to this really kind of helps.