Life Lately...

Friday, May 29, 2015

Life lately in pictures looks like....
A homemade fruit pizza made by the kids and I tonight- a little on the naked side(all we had was kiwi & strawberries!) but still super YUMMY!
Sometimes I buy ready-made crust but this time I made my own sugar cookie crust and the crust was so much thicker and maybe even better.
It looks like reading in the backyard together. And Stanley does not want to be left out of anything
at all. Also, he'd really like an ice cream cone of his own, because he's a smart boy.
It looks like... My roses finally blooming. 
Check out my peace rose, you can't tell that good in this picture but all the edges are pink. So cool. 
It looks like a hand-lettering kit I ordered last week from Prairie Letter Shop.
This weekend I am going to get in some practice. Fun! 
This week there was just a little bit of time for junking, I love searching through piles 
and stacks, inside and out. The older and rustier the better. 
Life lately looks like... Reading on the porch swing.
By myself and in the evening reading Bambi with the kids as well.
I am trying to get back in the habit of reading aloud with them and I am making a Summer 
Reading List for them and for me. Also? This book(below) was good and weird... But good.
Oh and pretty creepy.

Life lately looked like our annual Memorial Day family get-together that was cut a little short
 due to my little lady coming down with the flu. It's no fun throwing up outside in the heat, and even worse when there is no running water to clean up with after. Poor baby.
Life lately looks like this yummy new cocktail that might just be my new Summer drink.
Grapefruit vodka with grapefruit Vita Ice(or something similar would work) over ice.
Super good and refreshing. Also- cute gold-rimmed thrifted glass for the win, it's my
unofficial cocktail glass.
Life lately looks like about 500 school/end-of-the-year things and summer camp scheduling...
and list making and teacher gifts and on and on.
But I got a new calendar and I am checking things off my list.
AND, only 3 more days of school.
Life lately looks like...
Lots of blue + yellow.
Fields of golden rod and the kids in front of an awesome wall we came across last weekend.
Maybe my favorite color combo ever, it just kinda screams Summer.

You know this is just a TINY bit of my life lately... it's not all picture perfect, because no one's life is.
And personally, I don't really want to take pictures of the ugly stuff.
Oh, it's there, and I acknowledge it, but don't nobody want to see  some of this week's ugly in pictures.
Grumpy, crying mood-swings(me)? No thanks.
Quite possibly the largest most painful under the skin pimple I've ever had?
Uh... no.
My Mac book that crashed?
Definitely not.

Remember that when you are looking at other people's pictures and reading other people's words
on social media. It's a tiny slice, not the whole story. Thank goodness, huh?

Happy Friday + have a great weekend!

Happy Weekend!

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Happy long weekend, everyone! 
Hope you are doing something fun or relaxing. We are headed to the cabin and spending the weekend with our family + some of my favorite people ever. So- outhouses and camp fires and antiquing and no running water and cousins...

Here we come! 

Have a good one!

On Being Forty-ish :: Dreaming New Dreams

Sunday, May 17, 2015

So something happened when I turned forty.
And just for the record, it still sounds weird when I say out loud that I am forty(forty-one now).
Really? That really happened last year?
And I don't just mean the stuff that starts happening to your body, either.
{Because you do know that happens, right? And that it really kinda sucks, too.}.
You're in luck though, because that's not what I am talking about today.

I am talking about the realizations you come to about life and time and what you want to
 DO with your life and not do-and I'm not going to lie, the freak-outs about how fast time is going and the wondering of just how much of it you have left.... All that wonderfully heavy kind of stuff.
And let me say here that I think it's normal, totally and completely normal, for us
to have these feelings. And it may not happen to you when you hit forty,
it could be before or after- obviously you can have these feelings and thoughts and realizations
 at any time in your life. That being said, I do think there is some significance in turning forty and
being that age and feeling like you are right in the middle of your life and that either kind of
kick-starts it all or just makes you think of it a little bit more.
  Maybe not- but that is definitely how it has been for me.

So I think a lot about what I wish I was doing, what I hope to do, what I want to do
and what I absolutely do not want to spend my time doing any longer than I have to.
I guess I have not really come to a huge specific realization, it's not like I have finally figured
out that my lifelong dream is to sail around the world or anything crazy like that, thank goodness.
I know that I want more adventure, whatever that means.
More trying new things.
More challenging myself to change and grow in the areas I need to.
I have a strong desire to live somewhere else but I don't see that as a practical option right now.
I know that I do not want to just go through the motions of every day life and wake up when
 my kids are ready to move out/go to college.
I want a whole lot more of doing the things NOW that I want to do instead of waiting for
 that perfect "some day....."

Maybe I will decide I want to go back to school for graphic design or something in
the creative field, which has always been in the back of my mind.
Maybe we will move... and maybe not.
I know that I want more adventures and experiences and less THINGS.
It's not the things that fill us up or make a real difference in our lives, this I know.
Maybe I will finally get that kayak I have been wanting, even though I don'tlive in a place eveen close to ideal for kayayking and don't know anyone that would do it with me.

Have you had these thoughts and feelings, too...
Whether you are forty or nowhere near forty?
Have you figured out something you just KNOW that you really want to do,
or not do, or have started to think about doing in your life?

I'd love to hear some thoughts on this.
Tell me I am not alone!

This video.
This isn't something I really don't have any interest in doing myself but
 I think these people have it figured out, they are doing it.
I absolutely love watching/reading about how people are doing what they believe
 they are meant to do with their lives + following their dreams.


Happy Sunday to you.

Thursday Snapshot :: Siblings

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Last night on the way home from taking one of the kid's friends home. 
We passed by a small nature preserve area and the light was just perfect so I told the kids we were stopping really quick. Oh, the lighting. The Magic Hour. MY MOST favorite time of day.
She was being cooperative, he wasn't being super cooperative. 
But still, I love this picture. 
It's a typical brother + sister picture. 
He is stretching her braids out to see how long they are, she is letting him.
For a moment anyway. 
But you know, then it was; "You're pulling my hair"... "Stop...."
So we got back in the car and took the long way home.


All The Feelings & More On Mother's Day

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Sunday was a good day, a great day really.
I felt(and feel) so fortunate to be able to spend Mother's Day with my family.
My little family + two of the most important women in mylife- my mom and my sister.
Waking up to handmade gifts and cards the kids made at school... That never gets old.
Ever. Those will be some of my most cherished things as long as I live. And not just because they are cute and handmade but because they are so proud and seriously just so excited to give them to you.
I love that feeling.

But as good as a day it was for me, and it truly was, I cannot help but think of those not having a happy Mother's Day. The ones that are in pain and hurting and alone on Mother's Day.
It seems so wrong and so unfair that so many are dreading a day that most of us look forward to-
a day that we are pampered and loved, one many are spending with someone we love and that
loves us back.
A day that literally every other post on Facebook and Instagram and twitter is about...
TV shows and ads and commercials... you can't get away from these days if you tried. Truly, you couldn't.

I have a friend who lost her dad, unexpectedly, just the day before Mother's Day.
I know someone who lost her four-year-old child last month.
Friends who are estranged from part or all of their families.
People that are just plain alone on many days, including yesterday.
Women who have lost children before they were born or who have yet to become mothers, despite their hopes to have a child of their own.

I cannot help but think of my own struggle with infertility and the Mother's Days that would come around and I still wasn't pregnant and still did not have a baby... Those days were hard. Very hard.
And I hate that other people have to have those same days and years that I did...
Where you truly do not know if you will ever be there, if you will ever be celebrating with your own children. The not knowing part is beyond tough.

I don't have a pretty way to tie this post up.... It is what it is.
While I am so grateful and truly realize my own blessings, and try my best to live in the moment, my heart still hurts for those that were not celebrating like I was Sunday.

Just Me & My Camera

Friday, May 8, 2015

Recently I got to do something I never really get to do but regularly fantasize about doing.
And when I say fantasize, I mean it... I really do fantasize about it a lot.
It may seem silly, or maybe just kind of old-ladyish of me(because maybe I am kind of old-ladyish) 
but I got to spend an afternoon at the Botanical Gardens on a beautiful day. All by myself.
And it was a perfectly beautiful day- sunny, but not hot and not a cloud in the sky.
 The best kind of day.

I got to wander around the gardens slowly and take pictures and not talk to anyone.
No one. For like three whole hours. 
It was pure bliss.
I got to walk around and stop when I wanted to, I got to sit in the grass and look at the water and  do whatever I wanted, when I wanted to. And I got to do nothing at all except sit and think.

I got to take pictures of really pretty flowers, a lot of them.
So many flowers, amazing flowers- all different colors and shapes and I didn't know what any of them were, but I didn't care.
Everywhere I walked I could smell flowers and they smelled so good.
I layed down in the grass by the water and almost fell asleep- Until I heard a man and his kid near me and he was telling the kid not to sit down in the grass because the ducks always poop there. 
Uh yeah... true story.

Oh, what a great day this was!
I am so happy I decided to spend the afternoon like that instead of talking myself out of it.
Imagine how we would all feel if we took a few hours out of our everyday life, just for ourselves,
I know it makes a world of difference for me when I am able to squeeze in little breaks and quiet 
time in my own head occasionally. 

What would you do with three solo hours to yourself??


Happy Friday to you! Have a great weekend! 

{Virtual Coffee}

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Good Morning!
Happy Tuesday morning to you from my front porch.
It's coffee on the front porch weather, you guys! This makes me so happy. Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!
This morning my coffee isn't quite as pretty as it is in this picture, this was actually last week's coffee at
my favorite little coffee shop, with two of my best girlfriends.
So today I'm having my coffee on the front porch and that's a pretty good place to be this morning, if you ask me- even though I would really love to rewind to last week!

So - it feels like I have not been around here for morning coffee for a long time, and a little scarce around here lately anyway. The days and weeks have felt so busy lately and I end up running out of time for more than half of the things I intend to do every day it seems like.
And speaking of busy... It's May? Say what?
The last month of school is so busy with field trips and teacher gifts, concerts and just extra things to remember to buy and do. Ughhhhhh.
Last week Charlotte and I made May Day baskets for their teachers, this was my idea because it
was one of my favorite things growing up.
I remember cutting lilacs from the bush in our backyard and wrapping the bottom in a wet paper towel and then somehow making something(?) out of paper to hold them... I can't remember that part?
Then we would leave them on our neighbor's doors on May 1.
Charlotte loved making them and even made an extra one for "someone at school" but it was really for me and she surprised me with them the next morning.

Speaking of lilacs...
On Sunday I cut the last of the lilacs from my bush so I could smell them in the house just one.more.time. this Spring.
The rest were dying so this was the last salvageable bunch.
I love this smell so very much, it instantly reminds me of Spring and home and my mom and my childhood backyard.
If we were really meeting for coffee this morning....
I would have to tell you about my latest obsession- I got the first season of Girls from the library and was immediately hooked. I know people have all kinds of stuff to say about Lena Dunham and I don't know the story on her personal life and don't really care because- the show, I LOVE that show.
Now I am on the 3rd season and I can't get enough.
We signed up for HBO free for three months so now I can watch it on HBO instead of getting it form the library, and then I got the HBO Go app on my ipad so I can watch Girls/HBO wherever I want.
I am not gonna lie, sometimes I just LOVE modern technology.

Lastly, this weekend I am hoping(I said hoping, it's not super likely) to do a little work on my front porch-- the underneath part of it needs paintedr, the steps and porch itself need to be scraped so they can be repainted.... and I really want to paint my front door this yellow color.e
What do you think? Our house is a bluish-gray so I think it will look good.
I also need to finally spray paint my wicker chairs, get new pillows and plant some flowers.
Geez. Check back with me in a month or two maybe, it's gonna take a while.


On that note, I am going to finish my coffee and sit here in silence for just a little longer(I hope) before the craziness of another school/work morning gets going around here.
Tell me,what's going on in your little corner of the world? What's new?
Have you been enjoying your Spring... Any exciting Mother's Day plans?
Are you counting down the days until school gets out yet? I'd love to hear what you are up to!

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Have a great day & Happy Cimco de Mayo.... I will be celebrating with a fat margarita tonight!