Direction.

It is Tuesday night and after a long evening of haircuts and supper and cleaning up

 and dealing with two crazy dogs and baths and trying to figure out what needs to be on my

 grocery list for the week and watching a little bit of the Madeline movie 

and reading books before bed...

now I am sitting quietly on the couch by myself.

So quiet.

Eric has a late class so I am at it solo on Tuesdays.

So I make myself a cup of sleepytime vanilla tea and settle myself on the couch
under a big, warm blanket to do a little blog reading.

And when I do, I wonder the same thing that I have been wondering a lot lately. 

How do so many people seem to know what they should be doing out there...

the answers to big questions...and little questions...how do they know? 

Where they should be, what the next step is, where to go from here...

And just so this isn't confused as an  "I am unhappy with my life post"... it's not  that at all,

it's just more of a feeling of not knowing what's next in some ways for me and my little family.

Personally, I am talking about things like jobs and school decisions and where 

we go from here and what the future looks like and I have to say, I have no 

idea about any of it. Not a clue at the moment.

I hear (read) people saying things like; they were called to do it, they just knew it was meant

 to be, it was obvious to them it was the right decision....

And don't get me wrong, I believe them and I don't completely hate them for it....
but how do they know it is the right decision? 

The best decision?
And how come I don't seem to know anything for sure lately?

I don't expect a map to fall into my lap telling me each and every decision I should make, 

which path to take but I would just like a hint in the general direction.
Ya know?

And usually I don't get super hung up on these things, by nature I am just not a big planner.

There was never a hardcore timeline for marriage or kids or houses or  jobs or any of that for
me because although I think it's fine to make plans and have some direction,
 I know that life doesn't really follow the plan we often have in mind most of the time anyway.

But still.
It would be really awesome if the universe threw me a bone...
something...
anything?

Maybe I should have titled this "Directionless".
Yeah, I think that would have been more appropriate.
And totally unrelated, but kinda not, can I just tell you how much I love Parenthood?
I am kind of late coming in on this one, but I LOVE it.

Ps- I am so happy I get to catch little things like this every day.