Wait- That's Not What I Really Wanted...

Wednesday, May 2, 2012


Good morning and happy Wednesday...Wednesday means the work/school week is half over.
Yay!
My bff is coming in town so I am looking extra forward to this weekend, that means girl's night
out and getting all the kids together.
It also means that after today Miss Charlotte only has 4 days left of preschool...ever.
Then she will be in kindergarten, if I let her go :)

The end of the school year has me thinking about all kinds of different things...
The big thing right now is that I am going to be moving into a whole new stage as a mom soon...
I will be the stay-at-home mom with no kids at home.
How does that work,  anyway?






It's a stage I don't think I am quite ready for but it is coming anyway.
And if I am completely honest, I kinda didn't think it would be coming this soon.
In the back of my mind I have always kind of thought that by the time Charlotte started kindergarten
maybe I would have another baby.
But unless someone plops a baby in my lap within the next 3-4 months, that's not gonna happen.
So, where to go from here?
I kind of have no idea but it's a little bit exciting, too.






I haven't been able to see myself going back to what I was doing before I stayed at home with the
kids...I'm not ruling it out completely but the longer I have been away from it(social services/education)
the more I realize I was starting to get burned out on it.
Can I do that again?...I liked it and enjoyed most some of the families I worked with but it was a
mentally exhausting and often discouraging job, it was also rewarding and fulfilling at times.
Lots to think about on the whole working thing...honestly I just don't want to do anything at all for the
first half of the school year, just all the things I have wanted to do/get done/accomplish since
I had kids- which anyone with kids knows,  is an awful long list.





It's so funny to me and ironic and a little crazy that all we want is a break when the kids are
younger and we just want quiet and breathing space and then when we are finally faced with it,
we don't really want it after all.
Ha.
At least I don't...not all day anyway...not yet anyway.
But, all these changes are coming so I am trying to look at the positive side of all of it and not
dwell on the negative, which I might kinda tend to do sometimes.





Oh!  We did finally decide what we are doing for school next year(did I already talk about this?).
It was a huge relief to finally stop worrying and thinking about that one.
We are switching schools in the Fall and the kids will go to our neighborhood school.
I have more to say on this topic later but for now I will just say that I am happy with this decision.
I think it is going to be good and the kids are both on board with it, which makes me really happy.

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These flowers are on our neighbor's tree/bush, they attract butterflies and yesterday we saw about
25+ monarch butterflies on it at once. So cool. And the flowers smell so good.
Everything is blooming right now, I love it.

                                              {via Katie Daisy}

                                 Source: etsy.com via Amy on Pinterest


Have a great day everyone, thanks for visiting here today.





6 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness! You just summed-up how I feel about Max going off to kindergarten next year. I've spent years talking about wanting a breaking and getting some space, and now that it's almost here I'm wondering what to do with myself. And like you, I thought I'd have another baby on my hands to keep my occupied. My stay at home mom with a child at home gig is ending sooner that I planned.
    What ever shall we do?... :(
    Love this post!

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  2. I am in the same boat (as you know) and I've got so many mixed emotions about it. It is a rainbow of feelings actually with a pot of big heaping change at the end. To top it off, next year is the first year that they are offering full day kindergarten, with no other options. It is full day or no day or find a different school day. And really we just love the school district so it is... a full day. Such a HUGE transition. Not for Dom. He'll do great.

    For me.

    I thought I had one more year of half days, but I don't... and now I feel like I'm going to cry so I think I'll sign off... sniff :/

    Alita
    PS. sorry to be a downer. lol

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  3. as i get ready for my oldest to be done with high school forever, i can still feel those of-to-kinder pangs. and the expectation of what comes next. and not having a clue. i think you are smart to not plan anything for the fall... enjoy the time for YOU and it will allow you to do the things you want to do at school, too. you never know what God has in store!! enjoy your last few moments of preschool!!

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  4. as i get ready for my oldest to be done with high school forever, i can still feel those of-to-kinder pangs. and the expectation of what comes next. and not having a clue. i think you are smart to not plan anything for the fall... enjoy the time for YOU and it will allow you to do the things you want to do at school, too. you never know what God has in store!! enjoy your last few moments of preschool!!

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  5. that's great you have the school situation figured out!
    Even though I was a nanny for 10 years before I had my own children, I STILL wasn't ready when mine went off to kindy. I think that's part of why I wanted to try homeschooling! It's funny, I was almost frozen when they were gone all day, I got LESS done than if they had been at home! now I have one that homeschools and one that doesn't, and it's even MORE impossible to get anything done, but I figure they will be off to college soon enough and I will have all the time in the world to get whatever done that I want to get done!
    xoxo
    tara

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  6. yay! for contented decisions made!
    that can be so stressful. :/
    and think of all the adventure ahead...all the time you will have to create and DO!
    i think you should start a photography business or an etsy shop with your amazing style!
    xo

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