Not Invited.

I am sitting in the living room surrounded by Legos and crayons and stuffed animals.
I am drinking my peppermint tea and thinking of the New Year to come in just a
few short days.
First you should read this awesome little daily truth, then come back here.
Oooh, I love that one so much.
"Beliefs that make us feel stuck."
Wait--are they speaking directly to me?
It feels like it.

Have you been thinking much about all things New Year?
I have.
I like the feeling of going into a new year.
A fresh start...a new beginning...a clean slate...all of that.
The hope that new things can happen, that old things can be left behind...

This time last year I as trying to figure out my One little Word for the year,
you know a bit of a theme to get yourself going, motivated for the year.
After much thought I finally came up with Conquer.
Umm.....I never really got anywhere with that word.
I didn't.
I had high hopes but it kind of stopped right there.
I feel kind of silly saying this, but last year was a bit of a rough year for me,
pretty early in the year things were off  and now looking back I see that some of my
other plans, ideas, hopes and intentions didn't stand much of a chance
because I had bigger fish to fry.
A bigger, crazier fish to fry, I might add.
The reason I say I feel a little silly saying it was rough is mostly because I see what
other people go through and then I trivialize my own challenges.
Like since things could always be worse, I don't have the right to say it was rough for me.
That's dumb and I intend to stop doing that...soon.
Why do we do that?

There are many things uninvited into my life this year.
I know that doesn't mean they won't ever show up, they will, but it means that
I am not welcoming them and I don't want them to get too comfortable here in my
little life.
I'm not big on Resolutions but there are things that need to change, things I want to
figure out and plans to be made.
That's where my head is this week.

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