A Little Discouraged

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Okay, so here goes.
I talked a little bit about some of this a couple of weeks ago {here} although I didn't
come right out with all of it. So.....
We have been waiting and waiting for news on a job my husband interviewed for
more than a month ago.
Waited and waited.
Oh, and he had not one but two interviews.
He did not get the job, we finally found out last Friday.
All that waiting and hoping...the "what-ifs" and thinking maybe this really is it....
Bummed and disappointed would be an understatement.
Great understatement.
Crying in the shower and wondering where in the hell we go from here might be a little more
accurate--ummm...and that would be ME, not him.

So, all of the what-ifs and maybes and some days are gone for now.
Just for now though. I have to keep telling myself that.
Here's the thing that I am having a hard time with though-well, there's two things really.
A lot of things (in my mind) hinged on this job, maybe a different path, maybe answers to things
we/I have been wondering about. Maybe more of a concrete idea of where we are going...
I am talking about family, schools, jobs, working/not working(me) and just big life big decisions.
So now I feel like I am right back where I started; with no clear path, no answers, no idea,
just questions.
And a lot of frustration and disappointment.
I am discouraged. I know he is beyond discouraged...and not just about this specific
job but about the whole job search thing in general.

I feel bad for him. It sucks.
Jobs are scarce, too many people looking and not enough jobs.
And he is going into a new field.
He worked his ass off in school for this.
He finished school last Winter and officially graduated just this past May.
I was, and am, so proud of him.
He started school right at the time Charlotte was born.
I had a newborn baby and a 2 year-old when he started.
It was rough at times, on both of us.
He also worked full time and commuted an hour each way to work, every day.
He got excellent grades.
And didn't complain.
The same could not be said had it been me instead. Just being honest.

And through it all we told ourselves it would all be worth it when he was done.
When he had a new job.
In a field that he really wanted to be in.
And still we wait.
But still hopeful...well, kinda...ummm, so that's not entirely true but I will be again but
just maybe not quite yet.
Something will come along, at some point, I just hoped it would be sooner rather
than later.

So, if you know of anyone, anywhere, in any state or any city that is looking for
someone with the following awesome credentials, let me know : )

*Bachelor's degree in English
*Tons of computer/Graphic Design knowledge & experience
*Masters Degree in Environmental Studies and Sustainability
*Super smart
*Super sweet
*and super laid-back--which is a plus in any work environment if you ask me


I already feel better just typing that out.
The worry and stress is so much worse for me when I carry it around with me.
Thanks for listening, guys.

PS- I started this post a few days ago and just thought I would add that today I am feeling
better about all of this....I think wondering and waiting is the worst part.
Once you know you can move on from it.
And so we will.
Happy Wednesday, y'all!


  1. We are in the same situation right now. There isn't a whole lot of jobs out there so when one comes up, I get my hopes up. My husband has yet to have an interview. I feel so HOPELESS too. Last night I laid on the couch under a blanket and felt sorry for myself. It should be my husband who is doing that, but he doesn't. I should be thankful that we have a roof over our heads and pretty good health insurance but sometimes it's hard when you know that your loved one has so much more to offer. And you're right, now what path do we take??? All of these things I was just thinking of last night. But for now, we have kids and a house to take care of. It's really hard to stay down in the dumps for very long when kids are there to cheer you up. Off to watch one of mine read poetry at school. Sorry you are going through this but we can go through it together! Thanks for sharing!

  2. i can just feel your frustration. we've been there so many times. ugh...it's the no clear path thing that's crazy hard. i will be praying for you and your honey. thanks for sharing your heart.

  3. I know exactly what you are going through, truly I do!
    When mine were 2 and 3, my hubby went back to school and got his Masters in Business Education (he had been a CPA) and he worked full time while doing that and never once complained! sounds a lot like your hubby actually! Then when Ava was around 4 michael got laid off from his new job that he had gotten and we had no clue what to do! It was 9 months of scary times! and even now he still doesn't have a stable job because they renew the contract yearly, so he never knows when he will get let go! he got let go from a position in 2009 so had to scramble and find a job again. it sucks! he is interviewing now and had THREE (2 hour presentation) interviews and STILL didn't get the new job. ugh. it's such a frustrating thing. but mostly, I just have learned to let it go, trust that God has a plan and NOT worry about it. and mostly, I am too busy to worry about it!
    HUGS to you, I know that things will work out just fine!!!
    enjoy being close to your family and your cozy house because you never know where you guys might end up, so just enjoy the NOW!
    prayers for a job for your hubby when the timing will be PERFECT!

  4. first of all, thanks for being the real deal. i love real posts. from the heart posts.
    second...i'm sorry. we had wanted to move for a looooong time and jarrod applied for TONS of jobs. he started looking last january and finially found one just in september. i know about waiting...wanting and waiting. i'm sorry. i feel your pain.
    all i can say is keep your chin up. try not to focus in on it. i know it's hard. but try not to. i'll be praying for you guys. waiting sucks. i just does. it will happen though...


  5. has he thought of working online? like web design/blog design?? so many people are looking for that sort of work - he could also look into teaching an online class about what he has already learns, put out an e-book on this sort of thing, you heck, you could with your awesome photography!!
    my husband had back surgery, he is a self-employed carpenter, hasn't worked in 5 weeks, and still has 5 more weeks of staying home - he is making spoons that are so amazinge and selling in our new shop - but for us too, a new path-
    just remember that "do not fear" is written in the Bible 365 times -that is such a comfort isn't it??
    Merry Christmas and blessings to you!!
    Anne Marie

  6. I'm so sorry to hear he didn't get the job, and that the whole job hunt has been so hard. That's rough. It really, really is. It's also not easy to go ahead and put something like that out here on the interwebz, so thank you so much for sharing this with us. I'm sure the right job will come along, hopefully sooner rather than later. Maybe he can do some freelance work in the meantime? My hubby was laid off in late 2008 and caught some freelance work and it ended up that he made more money in the time he was laid off than when he was employed...so maybe there's a way he can cast his net a little wider somehow?

    Anyway, I'm sorry you're in this spot and I hope it passes soon. In the meantime, try to focus on what you can do and what you do have. I know it's hard sometimes. And I also just wanted to say...love your photos in this post. They're really, really lovely.

  7. Oh I know that feeling all too well having hubby be downsized out of a job twice in the past 5 years. My mantra...your faith has to be bigger than your fear! Be realistic but don't dwell on the negative. I actually started a vision board the last time (with cut out pictures of what I wanted to happen). If nothing else it puts a positive vibe out there and distracts you from thinking about the scary stuff. Hang on...ut will all be oK!

  8. *Hugs* I can relate to this more than you know :) These are hard times and I am sorry things do not seem to be working out. I think blogging it and expressing yourself is already very helpful, so keep on doing that.

    It sounds like you love and respect your husband very much (as he probably loves and respects you very much too!) and I think that is probably the best you can do - which you are already doing :)

    Be well, take good care of each other, seek out the love and support of friends.

    Blessings for you both,
    This Good Life

  9. We were right where you are a year ago.My husbands company folded just weeks before our youngest was born.He had a prospect in Iowa. It looked promisig.We prepared for it. I had my kids all in a tizzy about moving away. I stressed about finding somewhere to live with 4 kids in a state I knew nothing about but we knew in the long run it would be good for us.

    But it didn't happen and we held our breaths again.....
    Eventually it all worked out but when you are in that moment you tend to feel stuck in it. This I know.


  10. That's so tough and in sorry he didn't get the job. Keep your hopes up - no point feeling hopeless about something you can't control. As long as he keeps looking for opportunities and doesn't give up on his dream, he will get there. He's got you by his side, after all! x

  11. Hey Amy...I am so sorry the job didn't work out for him. I will keep you all in my prayers. My husband's all time favorite quote is this (I think it is fitting to the current trial you guys are facing with your husband's job search)...

    “It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; because there is not effort without error and shortcomings; but who does actually strive to do the deed; who knows the great enthusiasm, the great devotion, who spends himself in a worthy cause, who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement and who at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly. So that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.” ~Theodore Roosevelt

    As difficult as it is to see this now, I'm sure God has a special plan and many blessings in store for you and your family. The hard part for all of us is having the patience (and faith) to wait upon Him to send those blessings our way.

    I read a great book a while back and one quote really stuck with me about dealing with disappointments in our lives...

    "When the Lord closes one important door in your life, He shows His continuing love and compassion by opening many other compensating doors through your exercise of faith in Him. He will place in your path packets of spiritual sunlight to brighten your way." ~Richard G. Scott

    Keep the faith my friend and remember that sometimes doors are shut in our lives because there is something so much better waiting for us just around the corner.


  12. It is crazy hard to stand before a forked road with no map at all to help you navigate. Hubs did the same (got his bachelors when Bean was born and then his masters when Dom was a baby) it was TOUGH!!! AND tough on me, too (since I took care of EVERYTHING else, I know you know what I mean. Anyway... It IS tough, and some days suck. I hope that you have nothing but peaceful easy feelings soon, chica. You are in my thoughts!


  13. it's a daily prayer of thanks that nick has a job - for now! - as i cannot work...
    my thoughts and prayers are with you and your dear hubbie...
    these are hard times all over the globe...
    love and hugs xxx

  14. OK Miss.amy- you need to pack your bags for Sydney...Ritchie's work is in Environmental Engineering...running a Waste to Energy buisness...my brother is an Artist with many computer/graphic design contacts...pack your bags hon...it's a great city- it's just probably a little further than you were thinking...

    Just suggesting my lovely...huge hugs- been there and it's c*** tough...thinking of you....

    It will all come good- karma....

    Melissa xxx

  15. Huge (((hugs))) for you. My husband is self employed and I know how we feel when there is little to no work on the horizon. You guys are in my prayers. Becca


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